If you try and take a cat apart to see how it works, the first thing you have on your hands is a non-working cat.

Let me take a moment to review some of things that have been on my mind as of late.

butterflies
tests
ciarettes
travel
employment



I'll start with those and see if I cant make some sense of things.


I was sitting out in the backyard later one afternoon when a butterfly flew past me and landed on the back of a chair next to me. I thought it nice to have some company and said hello to it. It seemed to be the quite type and since I can be chatty at times I thought it best not to annoy it with idle chit-chat. So I returned to my silence and continued contemplating why the cigarette I was smoking tasted so stale, it was a new pack. Of course that led me to ask why I was still smoking it...I didn't have a good answer to that one so I let it be for the moment. I relaxed a little as the wind picked up and resumed my thoughts about the state and national reg test coming up and what they mean in the long run. You see, Now that I have finished school and received my certificate, I am now uncertain of my next move, Evac did not chose to hire me due to my mvr. This has really begun to trouble me because if they would not pick me up then the question now is..Will any ems in Florida pick me up, I had Bryan run my license out of state and it clean. So no trouble getting hired in another state. Which begins me to a sad point, it is possible that in order to be a medic I will have to move out of Florida again...hmmm...This is not a bad thing but I have worked very hard to develop good relationships with my friends here and feel that moving would be a large personal hardship, mentally. I really enjoy Florida and all the things it offers, but, on the other hand there is a fantastic opportunity to see some more of the country and meet new people and have ruddy good adventures. That really appeals to me. So the heart ache of leaving again is counter balanced by the thought of new explorations. The butterfly at this time saw fit to wander on and flew away. I watched it go and wondered if it felt the same way, it occurred to me that it mostly likely did not, seeing as it just enjoys it's self wherever it is. As the last light of the setting sun shined through the trees, I took a lesson from that insect.


sungod